Sunday, May 28, 2006
i'm exhausted.
met up with Adam this afternoon.
we went to changi broadwalk or whatever it is called after lunch.
the weather was unbearable and he chose to walk along those
ulu areas.
reminisced the past.
he was my ogl back in j1 for first 3 months.
and he was saying he hopes we'd still be close as before.
and i was wondering, since when were we even close?!
haha.
he asked questions which shouldnt be asked.
and i know, i hurt him yesterday by being so frank.
but i couldnt stop thinking of you.wishing you were there with me instead of him.went fishing in the evening with linus and his friend who sent us to bedok jetty.
cant remember the friend's name
lah.
but he's going to Cornell University in the States this year.
smart lad.
and he wasn't a tad arrogant.
kinda charming.
linus and he were so freaked out by cockles that we'd used earlier as baits.
so for dinner, i dared him to finish a basket of
boiled cockles.
and he was so on
lah.
haha.
ok, maybe i'm sadistic.
he was kind enough to give me a ride to tm after that.
it was a scary ride though because he kept getting honked.
caught poseidon thereafter
nice.
after titantic and poseidon,
im fairly sure i would never go on a cruise this lifetime.
-_-
desmond has been really nice.
and so is ferroz.
for cheering me up.
to think that i used to dislike talking to desmond few years back.
haa.
anyhow, thanks for being there dude.
i am still excited for qingrui and the girl he's dating now.
no im definitely not jealous because he's able to date someone he really likes.
in the past i would have wondered why my life's so screwed and unfair.
but everyone deserves their own desired happiness.
i've had it before.
so i guess i should be contented even though it's over.
sadness is inevitable.
and i cant keep telling myself tomorrow would be a better day when it's still another day without you.
it's hard when you've to swallow those damn tears.there're many people out on the streets, but all i could see are the vivid images of yours.this sounds silly.but it hurts to see all the past tense you're using on us.sigh.
take me with you
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